2008 and most of 2009 have sucked, professionally. I decided to make a jump back into financial services just in time for one of the
WORST markets in history. To make ends meet, I've had to take on two part time jobs, just to barely scrape by. But what annoys me most is that I've accepted what life has handed me and allowed it to steer my course, instead of vice-versa.
That changes here, now...
Life is a tricky bastard and will throw curve balls at you whenever it can. Fate doesn't always have your best interests at heart. But you can't let yourself be a victim of its circumstances. Sure, you'll have to deal with some crap, and sometimes even true tragedy. But you make a choice as to whether you pick yourself up, dust yourself off, or you can choose to accept what's handed to you, sometimes to lay down and die. Life is a full contact sport, and you
WILL pick up a black eye or two in the process. But you
CAN fight back.
You won't always win, but you sure as hell won't always lose.Add to this that I've been a bachelor for the last five years now. I've noticed that I've slipped, my standards have become abysmally poor. I've done what I've needed to, and I've survived, but I've accepted a lower standard for myself. I haven't been taking care of myself. I've made a choice, conscious or not, to live that way.
I now make a conscious choice to change that.We face many external obstacles, challenges that we can do fuck all nothing about. But we
CAN choose how we will fight, how we will live. Knowing yourself, your strengths and weaknesses is half the battle to winning any war.
You won't win every fight.
The secret is that you don't have to... Live how you
WANT to live. You will have to fight for it. Nothing good comes without some effort, some struggle. But do you
REALLY want to live anything less than what you dream? Do you really want to settle for what someone else has in mind for you? Make your own luck. Make your own destiny.
Choose Life!
The catalyst for this rant is, of course, love. I found someone I care very much about. I want better for myself, because I don't want her to see what I currently am. Because it's
NOT me. I know not what the future holds for us, but I want there to be options, and I want her to see the
REAL me. Not this current incarnation. I like the fact that she accepts me for who, and what I am. But I'm not happy with it.
Therefore, I am going to make changes...
That was a really long winded, chest beating post. The short version is that you should
NOT just meekly let life hand you bullshit, and ask for seconds. Send it back to the kitchen and ask for Chateau Briand, medium rare. Accept nothing less than the best for yourself. Otherwise, you'll get whatever that lazy chef is cooking...
Rise Above and Get your Gun on!
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