Not for the meek of heart...

I'm a profane, irreverent megalomaniac. And I have a good time doing it. It's in my nature. Most of my friends accept the fact that they're going to hear some fairly absurd things come out of my mouth. Sometimes they'll laugh, sometimes they'll stare in open-mouthed wonder that such a thing could actually be uttered out of a human mouth. I've been told that some of my utterances prove my part demon nature. I've even heard I could make the Devil blush! High praise, if you ask me...

But the point is, for better or worse, that I have come to be comfortable with who I am. My friends may shake their heads, and they may wonder how any human being's synaptic process could be that skewed, how that many neurons could misfire. But they're still my friends because they too have their quirks, as do we all. We have to wear many faces during our lives, our day to day existence. We sometimes have to subdue our basic nature so that we don't totally offend and appall the majority. But trying to suppress your basic nature is a mistake. Not being yourself, not being who you are, not saying what you really feel can be of more harm to you, in the long run, than to any you might offend.

BE YOURSELF! Life is truly too short not to be. Don't go out of your way to offend, but be who you are. Profane, sexy, silly, subversive, submissive, dominant, whatever. Enjoy who you are, and you'll be AMAZED at how many others will smile with you...

Dei dono sum quod sum - By the Grace of God, I am who I am

Run Amok and Get your Gun on!

Subject to change without notice...

That's life for you. Sometimes, you'll make a change because of where you are, and sometimes things will happen to you, and you'll have to adjust and adapt. Life is a full contact sport, and not for the faint of heart. It can be a capricious, wayward bitch one moment, and it can be a wonderous and incredible thing the next. It can also pass you by in a heartbeat, and will NEVER wait for you to catch up.

No matter where you are in life - Up, down, smiling, frowning, know that things can and will change. It's inevitable. But for God's sake, please play. You may not always win, but you won't always lose either. There is nothing worse than being on the sidelines for this incredible, dangerous, fun, scary thing we call life. Go live it and see what happens. You might really enjoy it!

Get ready for battle and Get your Gun on!

The Modern Warfare 2 Trailer

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90 Miles from Yuma, on the Highway to Hell

For some odd reason, this was the title of a mix tape that I made, back when mix tapes were still made. Probably the reason Just Saying No is such a good idea. Anyways, it make me think back to some past journeys, and my current (mis)adventure(s). Life is fluid. Thinking you'll just be able to travel a straight path is an illusion. At least in my experience. It's about ups, downs, smiles and frowns. Great glory, heartbreaking agony and defeat. If you don't try, if you don't dare, if you don't risk, you are bound to lead a very lackluster life. Our greatest victories usually come after some of our most painful defeats. Do you sit on the sidelines, instead of getting in the game and playing, because you'd rather not take a painful hit? Do you choose to play it safe, rather than strike out on your own, take the risk of greatness, or ruin, and instead settle for a life of quiet desperation? Do you not try for love, even if it can lead to heartbreak and pain? Life is Risk. If you don't take chances, you sentence yourself to a prison of your own making....

Teddy Roosevelt's quote from Citizenship in a Republic will always stand out to me - "It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat."

And on a lighter note, if you've never seen Texts From Last Night, GO NOW! When you can find gems like "(812): Rocking a Headband at the strip club, because of Rock of Love this shit is like their kryptonite, I smell like stripper butter and back child support." and "(830): If I was Danny Tanner and my wife died and left me with three kids I would hire a nanny rather than bringing in the sexually promiscuos uncle with a fetish for leather and rebellion and my obviously mentally ill (possibly gay) best friend Joey, who has never had a girlfriend and consistently talks in cartoon voices... a nanny is just a better choice", how can you NOT love this site?

Live Fast, Die Hard and Get your Gun on!

The size of the fight in the dog...

It's nice to have the occasional good day, to balance out the tough ones. The Law of Large Numbers, as applicable to Sales, says you will have X number of absolute crap days of getting kicked in the teeth and beaten like a step child before you have that one day that makes it all worth while. Problem is, X is a variable. May be 1. May be 15. May be 10 to the 44th power. You can probably stand after one punch. Or two. Three. Four. But after 10, etc., it gets a little tougher to keep in the fight. And staying the duration is ALWAYS what it's about. You may learn it's not a fight you want to be in and bow out. You may find that you just don't have the endurance to stay the course. You may not want to just stopping fists with your face....

But if you stay the course, and keep in the fight, you may find that you get your chance to strike, and make your mark, and that it WAS all worth it. And that is a sweet and wonderful feeling. I can't say I've landed that knockout punch yet, but I got three good jabs in over the last couple days that may help get there. And I've found that it was because of having a good corner, (e.g. good friends). In particular, I owe a big debt of gratitude to a new friend, who has been incredible in her encouragement and support, and just being there. It's amazing how MUCH of a difference that makes. I'm used to fighting with a broken sword against Hell's Legions all by myself. It's incredible knowing that you have some support behind you to bolster your spirits and gird your loins, metaphorically speaking.

In summation, fight the good fight, but don't do it alone, if you don't have to. You'd be amazed who can, and will help you, and what a difference it makes!

Raise your Swords and Get your Gun on!

Kalinka

The End of All Hope

Love Hellgate London and this Nightwish tune. One particular reason is the combination of the tune, with the fight. In this day, this time, this moment, it DOES feel like a fight, every goddamn day, just to survive. We may not be fighting horned, tailed denizens of Hell, but we DO have no shortage of demons to fight these days. And it can feel like you're VERY much alone, sometimes, in this fight. But know the hordes shall not prevail. Know you have allies, who will help. That you will succeed, you WILL conquer. It may not be this battle. It may not be the next. But keep in the fight, NEVER falter, NEVER fail and NEVER die! You will be triumphant! We ALL will succeed!

Draw your Sword and Get your Gun on!

Star Wars, Dallas Style....